I haven’t posted in five months. I haven’t been particularly busy but I’ve been pregnant and hibernating.
I am 22 weeks today and am kind of starting to feel better. The first trimester was a nightmare. I was sick constantly. I really had no idea you could feel so terribly nauseous for days on end. I have a whole new sympathy for people fighting cancer. Not to be so dramatic but at times I felt like I was dying. It made no sense to me that such a beautiful thing could feel so awful.
Just as I entered the second trimester, when you are “supposed” to start feeling better, I got a pulmonary embolism. It happened while we were in San Diego for my husband’s PA conference. I was convinced that I was having rib pain and tried for three days to just suck up the pain. However it got so bad I ended up in the ER. After reluctantly doing a CT scan it revealed two blood clots in my left lung and that part of my lung tissue infarcted, which basically means the tissue died off because there was no oxygen to my lung. I am so thankful that Dr. Charles Simmons talked us into a CT because he probably saved my life and the baby. It was very scary and painful. I still cannot believe one day we were bicycling around Coronado Island and the next day being admitted to Scripps Hospital. I have before and after shots…
My mom met us back in Austin after I was discharged. She stayed with us for four weeks helping me recover and helping us pack to move into our new home. We couldn’t have done it without her, and my dad who also came down for a week. I need to get some recent photos of the house taken but my motivation for decorating is not particularly high. Right now the house is sort of vanilla and might be until after the kid is a year old. I’m trying to let go of some things and focus on what I need to do to stay healthy and strong for the day.
Through this whole experience we learned that I have a blood mutation that causes my blood to clot easily. Apparently pregnancy elevates the risk of that happening. I am taking injections of blood thinners twice a day and just trying to make it through the next 17 weeks and the delivery. There are some elevated risks with delivering a baby on blood thinners so I am taking a natural childbirth class. Never thought I would go without the epidural but we’ll see! I am learning that I am stronger than I think I am.
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